Visiting Teaching

Slump!
I can't hide it anylonger...I don't like it. I felt like I was pretending to love these women when I don't. I don't want to visit them and have no desire to do it. It is Ingenuine
A couple of Sundays ago they handed me a new assignement. WHAT? Changing everything? My companion who I like and all the women I visit? Oh no! I am being babysat now. I can't believe it. I just know it is because I have missed the last few months. So we make it one month and don't for two. IT isn't that bad is it? And now I have an older women as my companion instead of a young mom like before. It is all my fault. When I was in the university ward and in the presidency I was constant and vigilent. What happened...3 kids later and life that goes with it. The slump crept in slowly and got hold of me.
I have the new assignment. Okay i'm being humbled I have a fresh new start! This could be a good thing. I'll call her first that is what I will do! One day goes by. Two days go by. Three days go by. On the fourth day at 6:00 pm MY phone rings. I answer it. My new companion informs me that she has already set our appointments for Saterday starting at 9:00 with 30 min to 45 minutes in between each appointment. And that she would like to have a companionship evaluation. AAAAAHHHHHH!!
I am calm and warm on the phone. And tell her that I'll be happy to do the message since she made the appointments. She will be there right before 9 to pick me up and she further says that she will call me Friday to remind me. I tell her I won't forget and hang up the phone.
I can't believe it!! And taking up my whole Saterday morning at that! The complaining really starts. My husband thinks it is all quite funny until he realizes that I will be gone all morning on Saterday and he will have the kids. "You better tell her that isn't going to work in the future," he says. That Friday I have a message on my machine reminding me of our visiting teaching in the morning. I just still can't believe I have to be babysat and that I did it to myself. I even laugh to myself every time I think about it. I am being baby sat! Saterday morning comes and I can't help it...whyning to my husband. The truth comes out. "I don't like Visiting teaching and I don't want to go," I tell him. Is that okay to admit? Sure it is and it feels good. I don't like IT!
I get in the car. And as we are driving I ask....So, what is your calling in the ward? "Oh, visiting teaching superviser. And my old companion who we are assigned to VT is the Visiting Teaching Coordinater." I am laughing inside. HA HA HA. I new it! I new it! I am being baby sat. It sinks in. Really sinks in.
The change begins.
We pull up to the first house and she shuts the engine off and asks if we can have a word of prayer. Of course I say yes. And she says a beautiful prayer asking the Lord to bless our companionship and the sisters we visit and to have the spirit. It was like a wave came over me. I felt the spirit and was now glad to be visiting teaching. I picked a great article in the conference edition ensign about Facing Adversity from Elder Eyring. That I needed of course!
Yes it was a long morning. But I was so happy to feel the spirit. I also felt that great feeling I always feel when I have done my visiting teaching, being obedient. It feels lighter and good.

Jesus Christ asks us to feed His sheep. And that is what Visiting Teaching is. I am doing it for Him. Maybe I don't feel an amazing love for each sister I visit. That is okay. It will come as I show my love for my Savior. By following Him and keeping His commandments. VT is easy to do when you feel happy and wonderful. But what if you feel like you can bairly make it through the day? It is that much harder to pick up the phone. That is why I needed a change. Even the strong have a hard time. No one is immune to discouragement. I hope that the change inside will always continue. That is why we are hear. To change and be more like Him.

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What am I doing? Why am I starting a blog? I am not sure all the reasons. I sometimes feel that I want to get the thoughts in my head out. I think this may be the tool. I noticed that some people's blog is a way to update family on how their kids are growing and what they are doing every weekend. That is not my intention. I would rather perhaps find a connection with other women like myself. The bliss and misery of daily life. The funny and the sad. We will see what happens.